SpeedFreakKai

Okay so 2022 was an absolute shit fest. Grandpa died, my bird died, dad got cancer, I had to quit my job because of my health and father's, verbally harassed by a child online, shitty relationship, and I'm a mental nut case trying to deal with her eating disorder. I am now 31 freaking years old. How the hell did that happen? When and why? I've been struggling to figure out my current art style that I want to have. I've been drawing like a crack addict as of late so I've got lots to share but I'm slow to upload. I haven't been very active anywhere really, but I'm drawing a lot more. Just finishing the projects is a hard thing to do. But I'll be getting there.

I was sent copic markers of all things last week by a couple in my support group so I've been experimenting with that the past couple days. I love it. But yeah. I'll try and finish stuff and upload them on here. Am learning Clip Studio fully now instead of just Paint Tool Sai. The controls in Clip Studio are so much better so I'm practicing a lot. Maybe I throw up some WIPs at some point. Anyways, I'm thankful for your guys' feedback and support with my art. I hope I can continue and make people smile like I always wanted to do. But I'm off to bed. It's been a day. I need sleep. zzz

I can't believe it's been half a year since I posted last on here, and even longer since I uploaded anything. I made a page for commissioned art but I'm probably just going to consolidate it to this one. It's simpler that way. I haven't drawn very much. More of I haven't finished anything just yet. I've got to get back and actually finish one of the drawings I started... But then I get another idea and there goes the first drawing out the window.

Started trying to color a different way- at least with hair. I'm liking it so far. It looks nicer than before.

Also I finally got myself a cintiq 16 tablet. I love it to death. I made room on my desk specifically for it and I can even perch it on my lap if I wanted to. My only complaint is that I can't figure out how to reconfigure a key bind for it so that the hand tool will be activated when I press a button on the pen. So RIP. It makes drawing a bit slower. I still love it.

Uhm... What else... Nothing much. Meds are changing around. I meet with a doctor again in two weeks for some problems I've been having. I'm sleeping a bit better. The new med I was put on helps with ptsd and my nightmares aren't hurting me as much as they used to. I still get a strong reaction that overpowers it occasionally but that's okay. Wasn't feeling too safe the other day because one of the people who bullied me was in the same discord channel as me so that was a trip. I started having troubles breathing though so I had to leave.

My boyfriend also comes up to visit in two weeks so that's kind of exciting. I'm looking forward to meeting him face to face. And I'm thinking about going blonde again. We'll see if it's possible with my hair's condition. That's about all I've got. Wheeee

2020 has been full of bumps and terrible stuff. But I finally feel somewhat comfortable to start drawing again. Albeit it will be done a bit slower than usual. I have to relearn how to do some things and learn a new drawing program that I bought. So please bear with me haha

Holy crap it's been a year since I've posted a journal. Anyways, I've got 4 projects going on. Right now I'm working on a big drawing for my grandpa for Christmas. It's a portrait of my dead grandma. He really wanted me to do it so that's taken major priority right now. Second is a portrait of my friend's avatar then I have to come up with a Christmas card for this year. Mom wants something with a lion and a lamb. Shouldn't be too bad? Not sure. Haven't drawn animals in years. Then I've got the rest of the BTS singers to draw. haha

I'm also looking for a job right now. Working with a job coach trying to find something. Really freaked out about it but I'm trying anyways. Also been busy with church and then random video games. Per usual. haha I'll try and get something up soon.